Friends Last a Lifetime?

Calling all friends from home! Where have you gone? What are you doing? Why did I lose you?

Please...don't leave me.

Lately, I've lost communication with basically everybody from home, except for my mom. I promised myself I wouldn't do this...but I've become a hypocrite. I've done what I swore I would never do. I isolated my different lives. I've seperated my friends from home and my friends from school. I've seperated my problems at home and my problems at school. I've seperated what makes me happy at home and what makes me happy here. Don't get me wrong...I love everybody and everything completely, but school has become my home. Where I live now, is where I relate to. I still relate to Bakersfield and all of it's glorious memories. Moraga is my home now though. I don't have the problems here that I did at home. I don't have to worry about pissing someone off every single day, because if I do here, I can tell them to leave me alone. I'm not giving up on Bakersfield, or the love and family I have there. I have just simply accepted the fact that my home is here now. I wish I could move everybody I love up here. Home is where the heart is...and my heart is in the bay.

Please don't leave me...


Remember how we all promised each other that we would stay in contact no matter what? Well, it looks like we're failing. What happened to the late night phone calls to check in on each other? Or the random texts saying that we miss each other? Where is that communication? I feel like I've tried and tried...yet get no response. I miss my friends calling or texting me to say 'hey'. I miss my friends letting me know they're around. I understand we're all busy, but I still try to maintain those friendships. I feel like I'm failing though. I feel like I have no say in this matter. Best friends forever, right?

I'm Over You and You're Stupidity

Dear Eric Baird,

I really wish you would read this so I can tell you how much of a complete asshole you are. You played me, you hurt me, you toyed with me, and you treated me like shit. Why did I like you so much? Why did I want to be with you so much? Why did I bother crying over you? Why did I despise myself so much when I stopped talking to you? I will not pine over you, nor will I ever wonder about you again. I don't hate you, but honestly, I don't give a shit about you anymore. I hope you enjoy your pathetic excuse for a life. I'm over it. Finally.

sincerely,

the girl you NEVER deserved.

Summer Lovin'

UPDATE!


1. Get a tattoo.
2. Kiss a cute guy.
3. See Kristen Falls every day that I'm in the Bakersfield area.
4. Take multiple short road trips.
5. Take 2 long road trips.
6. Follow through on a goal.
7. Spend time with my great-grandmother.
8. Be in two places at once.
9. Have a crazy birthday party.
10. Get unbelieveably drunk once.
11. Kiss in the rain.
12. Walk barefoot in the rain.
13. Swimming in the rain.
14. Make it to Warped Tour.
15. Live with someone else for a week.
16. Talk like Billy Mayes. RIP Billy Mayes
17. Make a committment.
18. Not get sick.
19. Meet a cute guy named Steven.
20. Buy Oxyclean.
21. Go poster shopping.
22. Make a decent amount of money.
23. Feel pretty, every single day.
24. Hang out with my best friends as much as possible.
25. Make this the best summer of my life so far.

Summer Goals Update.

So I'm reposting my 25 summer goals, but in this entry, as i finish them, I will put a strike through them. This is so we can keep track of my goals. Keep checking back for updates!


1. Get a tattoo.
2. Kiss a cute guy.
3. See Kristen Falls every day that I'm in the Bakersfield area.
4. Take multiple short road trips.
5. Take 2 long road trips.
6. Follow through on a goal.
7. Spend time with my great-grandmother.
8. Be in two places at once.
9. Have a crazy birthday party.
10. Get unbelieveably drunk once.
11. Kiss in the rain.
12. Walk barefoot in the rain.
13. Swimming in the rain.
14. Make it to Warped Tour.
15. Live with someone else for a week.
16. Talk like Billy Mayes. RIP Billy Mayes
17. Make a committment.
18. Not get sick.
19. Meet a cute guy named Steven.
20. Buy Oxyclean.
21. Go poster shopping.
22. Make a decent amount of money.
23. Feel pretty, every single day.
24. Hang out with my best friends as much as possible.
25. Make this the best summer of my life so far.

The End is Nowhere Near.

Twenty-Five Summer Goals.


1. Get a tattoo.
2. Kiss a cute guy.
3. See Kristen Falls every day that I'm in the Bakersfield area.
4. Take multiple short road trips.
5. Take 2 long road trips.
6. Follow through on a goal.
7. Spend time with my great-grandmother.
8. Be in two places at once.
9. Have a crazy birthday party.
10. Get unbelieveably drunk once.
11. Kiss in the rain.
12. Walk barefoot in the rain.
13. Swimming in the rain.
14. Make it to Warped Tour.
15. Live with someone else for a week.
16. Talk like Billy Mayes for a day.
17. Make a committment.
18. Not get sick.
19. Meet a cute guy named Steven.
20. Buy Oxyclean.
21. Go poster shopping.
22. Make a decent amount of money.
23. Feel pretty, every single day.
24. Hang out with my best friends as much as possible.
25. Make this the best summer of my life so far.

Explode.

I'm sick of hearing German.


The End.

Done.

I'm letting go.





I'm giving up.