Friends Last a Lifetime?

Calling all friends from home! Where have you gone? What are you doing? Why did I lose you?

Please...don't leave me.

Lately, I've lost communication with basically everybody from home, except for my mom. I promised myself I wouldn't do this...but I've become a hypocrite. I've done what I swore I would never do. I isolated my different lives. I've seperated my friends from home and my friends from school. I've seperated my problems at home and my problems at school. I've seperated what makes me happy at home and what makes me happy here. Don't get me wrong...I love everybody and everything completely, but school has become my home. Where I live now, is where I relate to. I still relate to Bakersfield and all of it's glorious memories. Moraga is my home now though. I don't have the problems here that I did at home. I don't have to worry about pissing someone off every single day, because if I do here, I can tell them to leave me alone. I'm not giving up on Bakersfield, or the love and family I have there. I have just simply accepted the fact that my home is here now. I wish I could move everybody I love up here. Home is where the heart is...and my heart is in the bay.

Please don't leave me...


Remember how we all promised each other that we would stay in contact no matter what? Well, it looks like we're failing. What happened to the late night phone calls to check in on each other? Or the random texts saying that we miss each other? Where is that communication? I feel like I've tried and tried...yet get no response. I miss my friends calling or texting me to say 'hey'. I miss my friends letting me know they're around. I understand we're all busy, but I still try to maintain those friendships. I feel like I'm failing though. I feel like I have no say in this matter. Best friends forever, right?